Amazing Happenings and BFF's

As most of you know who follow my blog, I am very into real friendships. Recently I have been going through changes in friendships. Normally it wouldn't be a big deal because I have found that some people are in our lives for a season and some for a lifetime. In life, there are some folks (very few in my opinion) who have a profound presence in our lives. I have been fortunate to have a few of those people come into my life. As of late, with the help of Facebook, I have come to find them all!

Yesterday, I resolved and restored a friendship with one such friend and this morning another one has come back into my life. The month of June has been very lucky for me. Lori came out at the beginning of the month. Sherri and I patched things up yesterday and this morning Tanya "friended" me on Facebook! I am truly happy these people are back into my life. Traci, Candy, Lorie, Sherri, and Tanya...wow. I'm very lucky and blessed to have such a strong and intelligent group of women in my life.

Thank you!

I have an AWESOME life!!!

Going back over the past three years, I can finally say I am and have gotten through the hard part. Everyone has STUFF and when you're going through it, life seems unfair. My advice, keep going and keep believing that everything will be alright especially if you make the effort and keep the faith!

I am celebrating my good and bad times because both have made me grow into a better person, a more loving person.

So for all of you out there hatin' life right now, don't give up. Go through it, survive it, LEARN THE LESSON and move on. Everyday I learn to love me and know that I have done all I can to get to where I want to be - the rest is up to God.

Let the universe take you where you are supposed to go.

What a Day!

Nothing exciting, not to worry. I've spent it writing, errands, resting and watching television. I must admit that I was a little sad. With all of the "friends" I have, according to facebook of course, no one ever really invites me to hang or go out with them. I spend most weekends alone and I have no one to blame but myself...I have pushed people away.

I enjoy my time alone but as I get older, I no longer want to be alone. I cannot wait until I am mated. One day.

It's Friday and I've got poofy hair again!

Not to worry, I'm still public presentable!

This has been a crazy week of ups and downs. As other writers know, this was the last week of getting staffed on a show for next season. It's always a tough blow when you don't get staffed. Your self-esteem is once again in the toilet and you hold onto your full 40 (if you have one) for one more season. I cannot say that I struggle with self-esteem issues but I do struggle with other issues like...is my writing good enough to compete with the big boys? I come back to life when I slap myself silly and respond, "of course it is!"

I had the pleasure of having lunch with a fellow writer earlier this week and I posed the gut-wrenching question to him. His reaction: we were walking through the floral filled mall on the Warner Bros. lot. The flowering trees were dropping their pedals as we walked by. He stopped and turned to me and said "don't you ever ask that question again if you ever want to make it in this town!" I stood there hanging on every word and then right as I open my mouth to respond he said "of course you are talented and good enough! We shall never speak of this again!" With that we turned to walk into the WB Store to check out the latest DVD's.

I am not giving up and I will get staffed and I will have my own television show!

Pastrami Day!

Yep, it's Wednesday. My day began with a scene on my mind so I wrote it down. Writing truly makes me happy! One day I will get on a staff then after that I will hire a staff of my own!!!

"Faith makes everything possible...not easy."

It's 9am on a Monday...

I'm at my temp job and wondering what I can do to make my day great?

- I could have a few moments of clarity to write on my pilot.
- I could be the better person and resolve all outstanding issues in relation to relationships at work.
- I could understand that I am not perfect.
- I could do my best to make my situation better by not complaining and accept where I am right now as a transition onto something closer to my goals.
- I could just be happy to exist.
- I could recognize other people's definitions of the following terms:
.....love
.....friendship
.....happiness
- I could simply let go.

Now of all these could's - I will accept them all and let the chips fall where they may.

I learned something...

about myself yesterday. Ready? My ego is way too big! Six months ago I reconnected with an old acquaintance from years past. We hit it off and quickly jumped into best friendship. Yesterday I got my ass handed to me when she told me something about myself that I didn't see. I was trying to make her the person I thought she should be!! I was forcing her to be what I thought a best friend should be. Talk about hitting you like a ton of bricks.

Although I'm happy that it happened, I'm hurt because I was the one who behaved so badly. I apologized to her and made the decision that it's best to not have a friendship with her at all. Don't get me wrong, I still want a best friend, I am just not ready to be one. As far as the best friendship at warp speed, take your time and get to thoroughly know the person first, make sure you have something in common. Don't make assumptions and teach yourself listening skills.

I learned a huge lesson yesterday.

Sunday Funday

First off...Happy Birthday Mary, today would have been your 91st! I miss and love you so much.

Life is moving along. I decided to apply for the position I'm temping in until things start moving for me in the writing arena. I temporarily reverted back to my old way of thinking, that I was going to get sucked up into this position and work for the paycheck and ditch my writing but this time, I think not. I really am changing and for the better. I now believe in love again and my hope has been restored.

This morning I slept in. I had the wildest dream. I was back in Chicago but my California friends were there. We were downtown and running late for church. I was with my friend James and Donna Marie. DM was after me for dallying around and running late and James was looking forward to going back to church. We get to church and there was a line to get in. While in line this BOSSY woman comes up from behind me and tells everyone to hurry up and get in because its time to pray! Not ten seconds after she said that a bell rang and everyone was down on their knees praying! I was annoyed because I was not used to this church, I lost James and I think DM flat out left and to make it worse, this woman's HUGE HAT kept hitting me in the head. I cannot begin to understand what that means. Anyone who can explain it to me, please do!

I'm at a different Starbucks this morning and still have groupies!!! I am glad to be out of the house and writing. I'm feeling positive again on this dreary rainy morning.

I never heard from Kurt and it's not looking like I ever will but we will meet one day. I do admire him that will never change.

Last night I changed my relationship status on facebook...the crowd is going nuts! I've received comments, "likes," and phone calls as to who this mystery MAN might be. For now he's a secret.

Have an awesome day!!

Blessings are coming to pass...

Happy Friday All!

Things have been manifesting like crazy as of late. I've been putting out good and helping those that I can unconditionally because great things are happening for me.

This week I've met people from my past, some very helpful and some not. I was able to devote more time to writing my television pilot and last night I actually had a pitch! It went very well. This person is excited and so far everyone I pitch to is very excited about my project.

I stepped out on faith and emailed Kurt Sutter. I haven't heard back from him.

I really feel like things are happening for me (going to happen) and I want to make sure I'm prepared.

I'm pleased with the rewrites so far of my pilot. Things are starting to come together.

Thank you God, family and friends!!!