After thinking about it....

My new project will be a drama! What was I thinking that I could turn what I do to make money a comedy? It is mostly drama! Stay tuned for further updates.

Excited!

After yesterday's visit to the doctor, the miracle meds he gave me has made me feel much better and motivated to get back to writing!

I am working on my comedy pilot "Temporary Personnel." It is about my years as a temp. After temping at almost every studio in this town and for every type of executive, I have enough material to last for years! The best part is that I am making it comical...laughing at the painful reality of being a temp!

The fun part will be for the local viewers figuring out which executive is featured in each episode!!!!

Rude Awakening!

I awoke to a swollen bottom lip this morning! I looked like I had just had triple injections in my bottom lip. My body has been going through a crazy allergy thing since I started my latest assignment at DC Comics. Could I be allergic to the building? At any rate, a big THANK YOU to my doctor for being on top of it and seeing me right away this morning. There are good people out there! I was beginning to lose faith in people, or rather the little that I had in them.

What you don't know, what you don't see...

Everyday I try and everyday I fail. My mom once told me, "if ya keep doin' what you're doing, you'll keep gettin' what you're gettin'" - I have to repeat that in my head and sometimes verbally until I get it! I keep believing that there are decent people out there, yet I get the same ol' same ol' just with a different face.

Am I wasting my life waiting for people do step up and do the right thing? I've tried forcing people to see themselves, yet their egos give them the same image. I do know this, we are all accountable for our actions and it will come back to you the way you treat others.

I didn't realize...

that I was suffering from depression! It hit me yesterday while speaking with my sister. This has been a year of loss for me and the year is catching up to me. I barricade myself over the weekends, spending as much time as possible with Max. I know his time is coming soon. I haven't been able to really write since Russell died in August. I've either kept myself too busy with this new temp assignment or just slept the weekends away next to Max. I haven't even been exercising! I hope I snap out of this funk soon.

Give up on writing - Is it time to shelve your spec?

#Scriptmag tweeted the question this morning. I read the article - I think the better question is give up on trying to break into the entertainment industry as a writer or continue on the road of writing for free and continuous disappointment? Do people want to be in the entertainment industry to be seen or are they in it for the money? Breaking in the industry as a writer is NOT easy by any stretch of the imagination. I've been at it for a few years, yet I'm still trying. I was told it's all about your connections more than your skill. With so many shows being canceled after one airing, I tend to think it's something more. Studios are cutting back on allowing a show to grow on the audience. If the ratings are not tops after the first airing, then by the third the show is bound to be canceled. I am not giving up on writing or trying to get into the seemingly impenetrable tv writers club - I just have to change my style a bit and schmooze like there's no tomorrow!!!!

I wonder...

what the day will bring? I've made the decision to just let everything go. Friendships are temporary like my jobs. I will no longer become attached. I hope something wonderful happens for me soon because giving up on it all seems very welcoming right now. I wonder what I would do if I did give up writing or rather hoping to get on a television show as a writer? I guess I should start thinking about what I should do next with my life. This time I will make it fun and easy!!!

Sometimes...

It is not meant for us to understand things for a while. My issue is that I try to solve the problem, unravel the mystery, and try to figure out why I go through certain trials and tribulations; or why I keep repeating past mistakes expecting different outcomes. I've decided to forgo the search for a best friend as they simply don't exist. People come in and out of our lives for a purpose and that is for our souls advancement, nothing more. I have experienced more betrayals than I wanted this year from poor choices and giving undeserved and sometime desperate chances to people whose intentions were never genuine.