Ok, so its been a couple of weeks...

Things have been happening at warp speed but not what you think. My step mother is still in the hospital. She keeps moving from nursing home to hospital. I flew home to see her a couple of weeks ago and she was happy to see me. It was bitter sweet as the thought of me never seeing her alive again breaks my heart. Also the knowing that she will never see me in a better light with all of my situations going on, i.e. finances, unemployment, writing - just having something great going on in my life so that she can go in peace and not worry about me is all I pray for; that and that she is not in any pain. I love her dearly.

I really, REALLY need something great to happen for me. It has been too long in limbo and too many bad things happening. My body and mind are exhausted. I know great things are coming I just don't know what or when. I've made peace with the fact that this is my life right now, as it has been for the past 3 years. I pray a good change happens soon.

Blessings and love to all!