My Day!

Today I am devoting all of the day to myself which means I will do what I want. How does this differ from any other day? Today, I will not concern myself with others issues - internally or externally. As most have noticed, I've reverted back to my natural hair and am going back to pure and raw food eating habits. I will not worry about anything today, or allow anyone to dampen my mood with theirs.

Today, I am loving and accepting me. My heart and soul have been heavy and unfulfilled as of late due to external torments in which I had chosen to take on. Today, that ends. I am free. I am free to feel, love, hope, and dream again. I am accepting all that God has placed on my path and beyond. I am grateful for all experiences good and bad to date because somehow they have allowed me to get to this point. I will STOP trying to figure out WHY/WHY NOT and move forward. I will stop looking to the past for answers.

I will let people be. I will continue to be me. I love me.

We still have choices...

Recently a group of people tried to steal my joy. After the shock wore off, I got angry then out of the blue yesterday three people reached out to me to share their exact same experience with me. They asked me how I deal with it when rejection happens. Never let someone steal your joy amd realize the situation was beyond your control. The only thing we can contol is how we REACT to the situation. My advice to them - let it go, never forget, and realize something better is coming in for you. Oh and DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY. Of course, in the line of work we do, how can you not take rejection personally? I reminded them, it is our reaction to the rejection which will lead to or hender our chances for future work. The only consolace was to not forget what was done to you and by whom and to know that it can happen at any time. In this industry is is a 98% guarantee you will run into those people again. Somehow that was very thereputic for me and for them.

Choose to let it go but don't forget the people and how they made you feel.

Happy Thursday! :)

"With understanding comes new perspective." John Gray

So I'm reading a book called "Venus on fire Mars on Ice: Hormonal Balance...the key to Life Love and Energy" by John Gray, Ph.D. - I came across the above quote which rang true to my thought process. I think I was born with an inate understanding of people because I profiling personalities comes so easy to me. I can usually figure out a person before they even open their mouths. I can tell in their writing and actions whether or not they are being truthful or have something to hide. Without realizing it, I use my talent/skill on every temp assignment I have. I quickly assess the personality of the people I'm working for then adjust my own in order to complete the assignment.

In most cases, I make new faux friends and in a very few, I don't. This skill is needed in order to rely on temping as your only source of income. Life isn't complicated, people make their lives complicated.

Which brings me to the title of this post, "with understanding comes new perspective." Through the years of temping, I have learned to alleviate much stress and worry by understanding the people I come in contact. I take a moment and try to understand why they reacted a certain way towards me then I pause before responding.

Human behavior is indeed fascinating. Instead of judging someone off the bat, take a moment and put yourself in their shoes then proceed. If they're hostile and unbending in their poor attitude, move on - walk away. Ninety percent of the time I understand why people react to me in a certain way. The other ten percent is a mystery.

Change your perspective, drop your fears and give someone one chance, then move on.

Dreams of the Past

For the past few nights I've had some of the strangest dreams of people who have passed on. In my dreams, I'm attending their funerals again. I am always with my family and we are always on some type of adventure. I'm not up on dream interpretation, but I do know that death means change. I've been waiting for change to happen. Somehow the past keeps popping up and in some cases it isn't pleasant. I'm reminded of how cruel people have been to me, for no other reason than their own insecurities. Somehow, I seem to threaten people without saying a word. I've decided to turn this newly recognized superpower into my latest pilot. This should be a quick and easy script to write since I've had the misfortune to meet people who feel threatened by me.

Do you unknowingly intimidate people? How do you deal with it? How WOULD you deal with it if there were no repercussions? On the flip, are you a person who purposely intimidates people? What are your insecurities? How does it make you feel to purposely attempt to ruin someone's life?

Everything Happens for a Reason!

Especially when it is something good. I do my best to be good to everyone even though some are not good to me. I cannot control others feelings about me and don't really care why they have an issue with me. I must keep moving on and remaining happy and positive no matter what. ISB's are part of life and the best way to deal with them is to succeed...especially against all odds.

Smiling and waiting for more good to happen!

Happy Friday!

Enemies on Facebook

I have many people on facebook and unlike many folks - I know 98% of my "friends" on facebook. Most people I met through work. Of the 98%, 10% are sworn enemies - defined as people who have done something to hurt me. When you work in the entertainment industry, you are bound to inadvertently step on toes. Not everyone will like you for whatever reason. I've lasted as long as I have because I don't care what people think about me anymore and being in entertainment, friendships are fluid.

Why allow enemies on your facebook page, you ask? Many reasons! Forgiveness is one. Not how it's described in the bible, though. Never forget what someone has done to you because there is a 75% chance they will do it again if given an opportunity. We all must continue to live our lives and cannot allow someone's temporary (because once they feel they've gotten what they wanted and the stress level decreases they are in a better mood) mood (brought on be a plethora of things, insecurity being number one) steal our joy and crush our dreams. Keep going and it is almost a certainty that your paths will cross again. When they do, smile. Holding onto the hurt, anger, and disappointment is not worth it.

So, allow an enemy to be a facebook friend. Just never forget what they've done to you. In some cases, hurts can be healed and forgiven.

Same old thing

Being a writer and working a fulltime job that has nothing to do with writing has become more and more of a challenge these days. I've been a temp for eight years now and I admit it's getting old. I've seen and done more things as a temp than many have done as a permanent employee yet, I hang on week to week.

This year is gonna be different. Of course I say that every year and each year is basically the same. The difference? I have four solid show ideas and amazingly am working on all of them. In the past my focus was just on the one. My first show has changed so much that I don't even recognize it anymore! All four shows are different, which is why I can write on all of them at the same time.

Another difference is that I experienced real love for the first time! Sounds exciting but wait...there's an unhappy ending. I know some of you say, "oh that's what love is about." I disagree. Love is not about heartbreak but of two souls coming together sharing their life experiences up to now.

Another difference is also I've begun this year with a solid grasp of where I am going. I've decided to make solid decisions instead of fluid one that never come to pass because they blend into the mundane everyday survival mode. This year I will think outside of the box and quite simply stop worrying. The past eight years has been all about worrying, especially about things I cannot control.


This year I will:

- Become a fulltime paid television writer.
- Complete and pitch all four of my pilots.
- Get a literary agent.
- Find love (or it will find me) from someone who isn't emotionally deficient.
- Nurture and cherish all of my friendships.
- Move on with my life and be happy no matter what!