Oh whata night!

It was really nice getting out with my new friends! It's amazing though how the night life hasn't really changed much, other than the fact the drinks are hella expensive. All in all I had a good time and I'm glad my new friends got me out of the house. I would do it more often if it weren't so expensive so I guess I will either need to start working in publicity again or find cheaper alternatives!!!

Have a blessed weekend!

True Blood

I LOVE this show! Alan Ball HIRE ME!

Thank you.

I can only do what I can do...

Fingers crossed and things will work out with the mortgage company.

I've gotten feedback on my pilot teaser and it's good but still needs work. I guess it wouldn't be so difficult if I weren't going it alone and trying to find my voice at the same time.

I still have hope and faith things will turn around for me soon like...NOW.

Over but not out.

I gave at the office...

just won't cut it anymore. Today I volunteered my time and gas money to help shut ins. I arose at 530 to hear Joel and get my inspiration for the day. Then I was up and out to Culver City by 730 this morning. Me, the woman who never asked anyone for help, the one who is literally 30 days away from foreclosure unless I come up with $375 by this Friday, the woman who has her friends cooking food for her so she can pay to stay in her house and keep her car. YES, ME, I gave my time, skills and smiles to people who would gladly trade places with me. I love meeting people, people who are grateful and appreciative.

As I prepared the food I was to deliver later, I thought about how I, myself didn't have food at home to eat. There was excess this morning so I asked if could I take a meal home, they said sure, just pay $36 for it. I left that meal there. I finished delivering smiles, conversation and food then went on my way to the store and bought food for me and my dogs. Now I need $400 by Friday to keep me out of foreclosure.

I'm glad I got to participate in something more meaningful than my LITTLE problems. I'm adding four more people to my prayers today and I won't go hungry on this day.

Thank you God.

Today was IDIOT DAY!!!

I really wish people would warn me when these days are coming! I should always know because the day before was positive and close to perfect! Why did I have to tell someone in accounts payable that Baton Rouge was in Louisiana?

It really is darkest before the dawn and idiots seem to have it all!

Ugh!

Early Morning Dream today

I was trying to do laundry and I didn't realize how hard it was to do being very pregnant! Yep. I had the pregnancy dream. I was with Oliver. He was helping me with my laundry in a laundromat. I miss Oliver and I still love him, but our friendship is over. I'm surprised I dreamed of the two things I don't have. Anyway, my mom says it means something big (good) is about to happen when you dream about being pregnant. I hope so.

Seventy-One & Angels at the Home Depot

First, I must start off by saying thank you God. As you recall, yesterday I remembered my $71 payment at 5:30 in the morning coming out on the 20th. I don't have it...yet. This morning I called and there is an angel looking over me at the Home Depot. They automatically moved my payment to Friday. God is truly watching over me and I will make it through these challenging times.

THANK YOU GOD!

Nervous Stomach

Why oh why did I think of SEVENTY-ONE at 5:30 this morning? It has changed my outlook for the day. Yesterday, I had great conversation and lunch with a good friend who is also going through it right now. I told him, we will make it through this...just hang on. I had more hope yesterday than today.

The day's not over so there's still hope. Things always turn themselves around, good or bad.

Moving on, gotta work on my pilot. Still no title. Any suggestions?

Today...

As I thought about rising out of bed and not actually opening my eyes, I thought to myself, wow today is a free and clear day. I can do nothing or something. Everything I could pay was paid. And then...SEVENTY-ONE DOLLARS popped in my head. CRAP! Just when I thought I could have a worry-free day, in an instant that worry came over me and my eyes opened and my mind spiraled down to despair...again. Just when I think I'm going to make it through, just when I can almost see the light at the end of the tunnel...

I just don't know anymore.

Negative People...

Everyone has encountered them. Instead of looking at a situation as positive or neutral, the automatically go to the negative.

On my last assignment, I had the pleasure of sitting next to one of those people. Well wouldn't ya know it, an earthquake happened! This guy was so incredibly negative that everyone huddled around him as if he were a prophet. I spoke over the cubicle, "hey mister doom and gloom, can ya give me the winning lottery numbers since you all?" He started laughing. He asked why I called him "doom and gloom" and I told him that everything he does and says is based in the negative. He replied "well, the world's gonna end." To which I said, well that may be so but I'm not going to approach everyday with fear, I will simply live it as if it is my last. I wanna go out with a smile on my face and no regrets. So cheer up and be thankful you are allowed to be here at this time. At first he would tease me and call me miss sunshine. Then like a flood, he turned his way of thinking around. He came in smiling and hopeful. "This house is clean." I thought to myself and to quote a line from Poltergeist.

Have a great day!!!!!

Interesting...and Amazing...

I absolutely love it when good things start happening and its even better when unexpected things happen. I was overwhelmed with joy yesterday by the kindness of two strangers. Not all people are bad, it just seems like it.

What I have learned through all of this:

- Just because they have been your friend for a while does not mean they are going to be your friend forever.

- Money changes people.
- Rely only on yourself and depend on less.
- Three meals aren't really needed a day.
- There's no shame in asking.
- Always smile even when your heart is breaking.
- People really don't care, they are just being nice.
- Insecure people are dangerous.
- Lazy people are dangerous.
- More sociopaths exist than people know.
- Dogs are better than people!

I've learned more things but the above captures the general vibe.

I am making it and will not give up.

Happy Day All!!!

Happy Friday!!!!

Oh what a glorious morning!!! Today is the day my life will turn around! You know that feeling you get when something great is about to happen? Well that is how I'm feeling.

Thanking you in advance God!

Yep, I've turned it all over to God.

I try and it seems all efforts I make are thwarted. I try to make the wrongs right and it just doesn't seem to work. I needed God's blessings two years ago and now two years later, I have been reduced to nothing. Hope is all I have because Lord knows I don't have money or food.

Letting go and letting God.

Let us pray...

It's X-Files Day

Okay, so you're gonna think this is stupid, but every time there is a marathon of the X-Files, something good happens for me employment-wise! I know it's silly!

Odd Day...Independence Day

For someone who is very independent, today was just another day. I must admit though, today was a very lonely day. That is my fault. I have very few close friends and I guess that's best.

Happy Independence Day!

I just know...

Great things are about to happen for me. I had two great interviews with key people in regards to the tv show I am creating. The last interview resulted in the organization flying someone to me in Los Angeles for an in person interview. I was blown away by that! It will be extremely helpful in my character development since I am in that development phase now.

Personally, I cannot say my life is all roses and Popsicles. I lost a good friend and I am still struggling to find a day job. Today I paid all the bills I could, so the utilities will not be shut off. I will get through this, I just wish it was today.