What I love About Me?

I was born with determination. I was a preemie, so from the first breath I had to fight to take another and another and, well you get the point. Having to work so hard to live from the beginning has instilled a great amount of strength, determination, and will. I've always gone after what I've wanted and for the most part I've gotten everything and more.

Recently, I challenged myself to workout for 30 minutes a day for 30 days...Today is day 24 and I went 4.8 miles on my elliptical. I used to run until my doctor took me off running and put me on the elliptical stating it will be better for my knees - and it has been. Without realizing it, food became my comfort for oh so many years ago. This once 3.5 pound preemie ballooned up to 300 pounds. And I never realized it until people started telling me I was FAT! And we all know FAT makes you UGLY...silly notion I see that now, but back then (13 years ago) I held onto that belief and working in the entertainment industry was not helping my self-esteem one bit. Mostly everyone around me was SKINNY. My determination and will to NOT become a type 2 diabetic kicked in and now 150 later (from size 28 to a 10 - shooting for an 8), healthy, happy, and yes BEAUTIFUL (that never changed)!

Last year I fell in love for the first time. Even though the relationship didn't last, I'm still happy that I was able to open my heart and trust someone completely. When you've studied criminal profiling for so long...wait for it....here it comes..."He who fights with monsters should look to it that he himself does not become a monster. And when you gaze long into an abyss the abyss also gazes into you." - Friedrich Nietzsche I wasn't becoming a monster but I did allow the many cases I've read and studied over the years about the cruelties people have done to each other that I completely shut my world off to anyone.

Now, my biggest goal to date...to become a television writer! After surviving preemieship, getting back on my feet after a long bout of unemployment, and throwing away 150 pounds, THIS has been a DOOZY of a challenge! In television, in the entertainment industry period, it is ALL in who you know. I know a lot of people but I also know that you MUST have something when you get there or you DISAPPOINT those people! With all of my rejections and misses, I continue to perfect my skills. I write in some form everyday. I also read a lot.

I'm a good person. I treat others with respect and compassion (depending on how they come at me). I manage to help others without letting them in my world completely. I am compassionate and caring but also very strong and determined. And that is what I love about me. :)

EIGHT MORE DAYS!!!

Twenty-two days ago I challenged myself to do 30 minutes of cardio a day! In eight days I will have accomplished my goal. The next goal is 30 days of ABS!

Thank you Shakeology for the nutrition!!





What are you challenging yourself to do?

There's a difference between...

Waiting for something to happen and making things happen. I choose to do both, sometimes making things happen pushes it too far and the results are not what you wanted. On the other hand, waiting for things to happen might make you too late. So put it out there and wait. We all get the messages on when to act, just make sure you act!!

I've been working on something for a while and thus far it has yielded no results other than frustration and dead ends. So okay, technically those are results, just not the results I want. Today, I shall do something different.

Challenges!

I've been on a challenge kick.

- Last week (after a weeks notice) I completed TWO drama scripts (that means they were at least 60 pages)to submit to various writing programs for next year. I enjoy writing dramas, to me they are much easier than writing comedy. I find myself funny but that doesn't mean others will.

I'm very excited about the two pilots I'm working on. Both are still in research mode with one actually on paper.

- After hearing about a friend's story about poor health and the doctor giving him a scare, I decided to challenge myself to do 30 minutes of cardio a day for 30 days! I'm proud to announce today is day 19 five miles on my elliptical!! The next challenge is the 30 day ABS!


- Join me! And as an extra added bonus - if you purchase SHAKEOLOGY through me for a six month home direct (cheaper) then I will give you a month free!! http://myshakeology.com/esuite/home/writerstewie Soooo many people ask me my secret to youthful looks, great attitude, and tons of energy. Of course genes, but SHAKEOLOGY,, water, movement, and healthy eating are key ingredients! Shakeology will help you turn your eating habits around and feel better.

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What are you challenging yourself to do? Have you started? What's holding you back? Feel free to post here or send me an email. I'm happy to help (even though I do hold a masters in the behavioral sciences, I am not a psychologist!).

Have an awesome day!!!

April 2013

It's been a very busy slow month! Slow work-wise yet busy writing, attending seminars, reading books, and the mandatory networking!

Life is so funny and interesting. Sometimes the lessons we think we need to learn are actually not the lessons we need to learn. They are the lessons we need to share in order to help someone else learn.

Finding my JOY!

I've been in a sad place for over four years now. Sure there have been some happy moments but nothing to sustain my joy. It began when I was laid off my job. Suddenly a plethora of emotions, issues and unexpected drama began. I admit, I was spoiled in my position for eight years. I had gotten used to the personalities and the politics. I knew the game and the players and they knew me. And in one fell swoop it was gone. I had savings and I thought I had friends to sustain me through what I thought would be a brief blip in my life. Wow, what a BLIP! I've encountered more backstabbing, outright cruelty and insecurity in people than I have in my entire life. I was used to being around strong, smart, and sure individuals. Now all I seem to encounter are very insecure and not so smart people, downright sneaky types that hang their futures by being cruel to others.

How can I find my joy in a world like this? The other day, here in Burbank, I saw a billboard in all caps and big letters, "SUICIDE: Know the signs!" Wow, as a society is this where we are? I believe people are tired of the blatant cruelty being bestowed on others.

I will find my joy. I just need direction. I'm in auto-mode, which sadly is survival mode yet I am NOT cruel, backstabby or insecure. I tend to internalize which incidentally is why I have a blog...to get things out, share my thoughts. I used to find joy in simple things, nature, my dogs, my friends, chocolate.

What brings you joy?

In the story

I sat down to write at my favorite writing spot this morning. Have you ever been so wrapped up in your story that it feels like it's happening? That has never happened to me. Usually I know it's a story but I was so into it, I was actually there in the moment. In this particular scene we are in a park early in the morning looking for body parts. I could actually feel the cold air and the warmth of the coffee cup in my hand as I spoke with the detective. I need to finish the story.