Everyone is gifted in some way. I have a few gifts and without revealing all, let's just say I was lead astray by my own volition. The path I stumbled upon was so off that now I kind of feel like Alice and that damn rabbit hole! Everyday I wake up asking these three questions:
1. How do I get out of this?
2. What was I thinking?
3. How can I be so stupid?
If ever there was a moment to take something back, or be granted a "do over" this would be one of those times. I must admit, I've never jammed myself up like this before. Unlike an investigation, I cannot retrace steps or move backwards in order to move forward to find the killer. There is no killer and I'm not writing a television drama. This is real life. This is now. "What's done cannot be undone" to borrow the phrase from Shakespeare's Lady Macbeth.
Maybe I should stop trying to answer those questions and continue to move forward, lay low - maybe no one will find out. I'm already filled with many secrets. As a writer, I've seen and done many things, enough to fill a lifetime; which is why I cannot believe I made such a foolish mistake. All I can do is wait for divine intervention to either move it forward or delete it completely.
Make it so number one!
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Tuesday, March 20, 2012
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Lisa has a unique way of bending reality with her words. With her criminal justice education and entertainment industry work experience, she’s able to tell a true story from an angle that makes you think. Her pilot Transmigration revisits Jonestown: same ending, wicked twist. Her pilot I See gives a shocking, fictional look at an ongoing, unsolved murder case inside the LASD.
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ReplyDeleteMove forward - always move forward. Standing still and looking back only keep you from progress. If you can't go over, under or around it then grit your teeth and go through it and move forward - always move forward.
ReplyDeleteThe amount of embarrassment is one thing, the disappointment blow to my heart and soul is another...not to mention my ego (which she will get over it). I was really not expecting this...I did NOT see this coming.
DeleteIf you don't move forward then you are letting someone else make decisions for you and choose your path. We get over things by moving forward. Sometimes you have to let yourself grieve for the loss of something (or loss of the potential) but don't let that keep you from moving forward. Whatever happened to make you feel like this - accept your mistakes and learn from them. Making mistakes is normal and everyone does it - the trick is to learn from them and move on without judging every situation on this one. Forgive - just don't forget. And that includes forgiving yourself.
ReplyDelete"Loss of the potential" those words cut through me like a knife. Totally devastating words. But you're right. I've got to let go. I cannot believe I was sooooooooo far off. I don't think I will even look for the lesson in this one. Officially closed for business...again.
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