What I love About Me?

I was born with determination. I was a preemie, so from the first breath I had to fight to take another and another and, well you get the point. Having to work so hard to live from the beginning has instilled a great amount of strength, determination, and will. I've always gone after what I've wanted and for the most part I've gotten everything and more.

Recently, I challenged myself to workout for 30 minutes a day for 30 days...Today is day 24 and I went 4.8 miles on my elliptical. I used to run until my doctor took me off running and put me on the elliptical stating it will be better for my knees - and it has been. Without realizing it, food became my comfort for oh so many years ago. This once 3.5 pound preemie ballooned up to 300 pounds. And I never realized it until people started telling me I was FAT! And we all know FAT makes you UGLY...silly notion I see that now, but back then (13 years ago) I held onto that belief and working in the entertainment industry was not helping my self-esteem one bit. Mostly everyone around me was SKINNY. My determination and will to NOT become a type 2 diabetic kicked in and now 150 later (from size 28 to a 10 - shooting for an 8), healthy, happy, and yes BEAUTIFUL (that never changed)!

Last year I fell in love for the first time. Even though the relationship didn't last, I'm still happy that I was able to open my heart and trust someone completely. When you've studied criminal profiling for so long...wait for it....here it comes..."He who fights with monsters should look to it that he himself does not become a monster. And when you gaze long into an abyss the abyss also gazes into you." - Friedrich Nietzsche I wasn't becoming a monster but I did allow the many cases I've read and studied over the years about the cruelties people have done to each other that I completely shut my world off to anyone.

Now, my biggest goal to date...to become a television writer! After surviving preemieship, getting back on my feet after a long bout of unemployment, and throwing away 150 pounds, THIS has been a DOOZY of a challenge! In television, in the entertainment industry period, it is ALL in who you know. I know a lot of people but I also know that you MUST have something when you get there or you DISAPPOINT those people! With all of my rejections and misses, I continue to perfect my skills. I write in some form everyday. I also read a lot.

I'm a good person. I treat others with respect and compassion (depending on how they come at me). I manage to help others without letting them in my world completely. I am compassionate and caring but also very strong and determined. And that is what I love about me. :)