Reasons Why?

Sometimes I, no wait...  I always try to solve this puzzle called life.  I  believe everything, good and bad, happens for a reason.  I am always trying to figure out why, instead of letting the situation  be and allowing things to happen without reason, I try to figure out the lesson to be learned in every moment.  I think in "If Then" statements, knowing full well that I cannot do anything to change the past.  I cannot, nor would I want to.  But I can change my present and slightly alter my future.

For example, IF I would have not placed an ad on a dating site in 2008, THEN I would have never met and gotten to know OLIVER BERNSHAUSEN, a great friend; loyal, trustworthy, and confident to the end.  I would not be missing him on the anniversary of his death, July 10, 2012.  Moments happen.  People come in and out of our lives, some stay longer than others.

At this very moment, I am trying to detach a bond that should have never happened.  In a brief moment of complete weakness, I created and forced a bond.  Now I must break it.  It doesn't nurture my soul.

Do you ever find that certain things keep happening to you and you can't figure out why?  Think about the meaning of insanity, then take a different approach is my first thought.  My second thought is to figure out why.  I've been at my current state four times in my life.  Every time I am taken to the brink of failure then something happens to save me from total destruction but not without much work and clawing my way out to set things right.

Why do I feel the need to always know the reasons why things happen, especially since it is clear I am not learning from my past mistakes (lessons)?

Message for today:  Let it be by letting it go.