Finding my JOY!

I've been in a sad place for over four years now. Sure there have been some happy moments but nothing to sustain my joy. It began when I was laid off my job. Suddenly a plethora of emotions, issues and unexpected drama began. I admit, I was spoiled in my position for eight years. I had gotten used to the personalities and the politics. I knew the game and the players and they knew me. And in one fell swoop it was gone. I had savings and I thought I had friends to sustain me through what I thought would be a brief blip in my life. Wow, what a BLIP! I've encountered more backstabbing, outright cruelty and insecurity in people than I have in my entire life. I was used to being around strong, smart, and sure individuals. Now all I seem to encounter are very insecure and not so smart people, downright sneaky types that hang their futures by being cruel to others.

How can I find my joy in a world like this? The other day, here in Burbank, I saw a billboard in all caps and big letters, "SUICIDE: Know the signs!" Wow, as a society is this where we are? I believe people are tired of the blatant cruelty being bestowed on others.

I will find my joy. I just need direction. I'm in auto-mode, which sadly is survival mode yet I am NOT cruel, backstabby or insecure. I tend to internalize which incidentally is why I have a blog...to get things out, share my thoughts. I used to find joy in simple things, nature, my dogs, my friends, chocolate.

What brings you joy?