The Stats/The Dentist/Life

I find it hilarious that there are 15 IP addresses from Japan following Stewie's thoughts. It's amazing how the internet has given me popularity. OK, so 15 people...hey, it's better than zero.

Back from the dentist yesterday...prognosis...I have a cavity under my crown. I'm blessed to have found a dentist with a heart. Although they couldn't do anything for me because I had no money or insurance, they did do what they could to ease the pain in my tooth for no charge.

What I'm going through, I wouldn't wish on anyone. I miss the stability of what my life was. I miss a savings account. I miss knowing that whatever I wanted (within reason) could be gotten and I miss comfort. I am sleeping through the night but I believe that is the depression. I believe there are levels of stress and I must be in a stress pocket in which my conscious mind has shut down to the possibility of failure at the moment and is sustaining itself in a hold pattern based on the recent positive feedback these past two months have yielded. Or maybe subconsciously I'm tired of playing that broken record and have removed the record from my playlist.

I will get through this dear readers.