Goodbye 2012

I tried posting this for the past two days but the system was down. Here is what I posted on Facebook.

2012 What a year it was for me. It had it's ups and downs and for me, sadly mostly down but I managed to make it through. Most of you already know I lost my last dog Max in November and I miss him everyday. I lost my friend and hairapist Pamula James last week. We were able to have one last session the Saturday before.

Oliver Bernshausen, my friend and the one guy in the world who understood me and loved me unconditionally died in July.

Thank you Dobie Gillis, Robin Baker and Jim Chadwick for helping me clear out Oliver's house.

Both Oliver and Pam were 44. If knowing both of them has taught me anything about life is to go out and LIVE it! Go after your dreams and take a chance on love.

Some of you know, I did fall in love last year as well. What most of you don't know was it was my very first time! For once I wasn't selfish with my heart. I was willing to learn and grow with another person. Sadly, that ended too. Love doesn't work when the other person doesn't love you back.

Then there's my writing. After working on it for a few years now, I finally thought I was making a name for myself. I got in and pitched my show to a studio. Since I don't really have an agent to get in and follow up and fight for me (while I'm temping to make ends meet), my project was, or rather the title and the theme of my project was taken. I'd like to thank Nancy Hamilton, Nan Diacovo, Chrissy Thompson, Barb Becka, Robin Roccaro Damski and Candace L. Punch for reading my pilot over and over without complaining. I thank them for keeping me motivated when II felt none.

Let's not forget the struggles I had at the beginning of the year. All I can say is being sued...twice is not a pleasant experience. Mind you it wasn't for something I did, it was for something I didn't do. Happily, all of the is behind me and I ended up whole and on top.

Many wonder why I haven't had much to say lately on Facebook, or anywhere else, I figure if you have nothing nice to post, then why post?

My health is good and so is my immediate family. I miss Mary very much. She was always able to talk me "off the bridge" and trust me, last year was a doozie.

My sister, Jelahn Stewart is my best friend in the world. As time passes (I don't want too admit I'm getting older), I find her wisdom, love and laughter to be something I cannot do without. I love you dear sister.

2013 will be a better year for me personally. As Joel would say, "I've come through the fire and all that fire did was burn the binds that kept me from the promise."

This year I would like to make real friends AND to be a real friend to others.