I still have FAITH...

It seems that when I get a small break, it seems it pushes me 5 steps back. I spent a good time with my family overseas a few weeks ago. I had just started a position at ABC production and was told that everything is fine. I got back that Monday only to find that the guy who sat in for me talked his way into my job and the executive let me go. Just when I saw the solution to my struggles, I'm bombarded with them again.

Should I have not taken the trip, even though it was planned months before that job existed? I refused then as I do now to regret my decision to be with my family. The Friday after I got back, my mom came back from the doctor and was told she had a stroke. She is fine, but what if things were not?

Then the guy who was my angel for so many years is no longer. He has decided that because I am no longer making the money I used to, I am not worthy of anything let alone his friendship. I ended the friendship last week. I cannot and will not have flaky and selfish people in my corner. I will no longer be disappointed in the actions of others. I will simply not expect anything from anyone. I expected to have a job upon my return, I expected people to put aside their insecurities and do the right thing, I expected people to love me no matter my financial status.

Yet, through it all, I still believe all wrongs will be made right and that my life will get back on track and be the best ever. I keep prayin'.