Episode Assignment...My First!!

Although the morning might appear dreary, and the rain comes and goes, (not to mention I had my hair flat ironed last week and my car washed - hmmm coincidence?) I am incredibly excited to be writing again! I simply could not wait for the weekend to come! My episode is due on Thursday! What am I feeling? Excited. Nervous. Anxious. Motivated. Inspired. Challenged, only because of my full 40 usually turns into a full 50 leaving me a bit exhausted during the week! I'm not complaining! Many TALENTED writers have full 40's, a family, and other challenges in their lives and are still able to get on a show.

At the beginning of the year, I sought out mentors for guidance. While no one has stepped up to the plate yet, I continue to write. I realized on this journey, I am responsible for my own MOTIVATION. Connecting with many writers the common theme, other than the lack of opportunities in television for "baby" writers, is the LOVE for the craft. It is IMPERATIVE! You must LOVE writing, no matter what happens.

Writing for me is therapeutic as it allows me to say all the things I think about without offending someone directly!!! Of course those of you who know me, know I'm not shy! At my YOUNG age (stop laughing), I've had a plethora of life experiences and ready for that WRITER'S ROOM!

Excited and doing the happy dance at Starbucks while writing this morning!!

Yes indeed it is a GREAT Day!!! Follow me on Twitter: @writerstewie

Suicide on the 210 and the 405 this morning? What is going on?

This is what we in Los Angeles had to deal with this morning:

http://abclocal.go.com/kabc/story?section=news/local/los_angeles&id=9445777

As I drove home tonight on the freeway where this person jumped to his death and hit a car this morning, I said a silent preyer. I prayed for the person who hit him and the victim's family. Why? The person who was simply driving to work this morning will never forget this day. He was probably headed to a mundane job or even an interview, sipping on his coffee and listening to NPR. The person will never forget this day because of one person's selfish act.

The other prayer is for the family that had to claim the body. Having experienced this myself, the hours of not having any answers and waiting to view this body that may or may not be your friend or family member. It's certainly not how it is in the movies. You are waiting for a while.

Don't get me wrong, I do feel sorry for the soul who committed suicide this morning. I just wished this person would of had someone to listen to him before making this lifetimes final decision. I've had two friends leave me by suicide and from experience it is no piece of cake, nor is it something I will ever forget.

Sometimes friends need to just LISTEN without judgment or advice. Just listen. Suicide is no joke, and guess what? You're not coming back to see others feel bad for you. My rule of thumb when life gets challenging, take a break and give yourself 24 hours before making any decisions. "Be Still...and know that I am God." Psalms 46:10. I simply say that and it immediately calms me. We do NOT know what tomorrow brings. And we know there are delays, so wait.

Going Through It...again?

NO! And I am working on a new project that is bringing me much joy! The research was completed last month and now I'm feverishly writing the script! I am very excited about this project. I've spent many a weekend internet-free because this needs to be done within the next few weeks.

At the same time, working my 50 (day job) and revisiting an old issue that wasn't resolved. Goal: Resolve it THIS week!

Happy to report 20 pounds dropped in 2013. I have also gone mostly organic food-wise. Work provides food so I am not 100% organic...yet. I've started a weekly juice fast one to two days a week to keep the vitamins coming in.

Dental work...the wisdom teeth are gone and one root canal done. The goal is to get healthy tooth-wise.

Friends - I made a few since December...Hazaa! Not that this is ever a problem.

I should be back and posting in three weeks after this script is written!!

Loving someone incapable of Loving again

People who have been beat down by past relationships find it hard to love again, not thoroughly. They hold onto pieces of a past that no longer exists, carrying it with them into their future. How do you love someone like this? In my opinion, the only way to love someone so hurt and broken by their past is to love them unconditionally - without expectation.

I've done this recently. Admittedly, it's not easy. It's especially hard when you are able to see beyond the hardened shell the person has erected. I'm not special. I just see beyond what appears before my eyes.

Love unconditionally - no expectations of that love ever being returned or restored in that person for you.

The Universe Has Jokes too!

I thought some people were Ha Ha funny, it seems the Universe has jokes as well. Doing all I can to move forward, yet it seems I keep getting sucked back into the madness!!! What's the plan, man?

Happy, the new state of mind

I love meeting people, especially people I've met through Facebook. Today, I met a friend of Oliver's, now my friend. We spent a good portion of time reminiscing about our friend. I have good friends. Everyone has something. Everyone goes through something. It's how you react to their situation that makes the difference. I've learned throughout the years to keep calm. After going over the events of the last year, of which most of it's a blur, I came out ahead. All I know is I did the best I could to help my friend and his family. I also fell in and out of love for the first time in my life. I accomplished amazing things, just in the past two months alone; and I am blessed with awesome family and friends who were with me every step of the way.

I love it when people comment on some of the pictures I post. I posted one last year where so many people sent messages of congratulations and you look so happy...finally. Now, I am just happy for no reason. I'm good to everyone I encounter. I've learned to not overreact (zero to a hundred), and I let may things go. My life has changed for the better. Thank you.

Mustard, Relish, and Ketchup

Sometimes those three things are all you need to make you happy. What? How? When you're coming out of a serious funk where nothing seemed to go right and you're hanging by a thread, your only refuge...mustard, relish, and ketchup can save the day and restore the hope.

When I was a child, I used to eat mustard, relish, and ketchup sandwiches. Ewww, you think. Not so. They were my favorite next to popcorn! I had them in a time in my life where I was innocent, young, safe, and most importantly loved. I loved those sandwiches. When things seem out of my hands, the one thing I can always rely on...mustard, relish, and ketchup sandwiches.