Okay, It's been a While...

Anyone who knows me personally, knows that I have been through it for the past four months! Sadly, my step mom passed away on March 23rd and I miss her everyday!! I love you Mary! Then my best friend, of which our friendship is on hiatus, threw me under the bus for a man (don't get me started)!!!! I hope he will make her very happy. I am of the opinion that best/good friends are above relationships. I could be wrong but that's my thinking. I figure if she easily dropped me for the attentions of a man, who's to say she will be around when I need her? I would love comments about this. I'm really on the fence as to whether or not we should remain friends.

So now what?

LIFE GOES ON and I make the best of what I've got! I'm still writing, smiling, loving, hoping and praying daily. I'm looking forward to the time where I will be apart of a writing team on a television show in the writing room. I know this is all in God's time, but this year would be awesome!!!

I'm looking forward to falling in love with the perfect guy for me...finally!!! I feel I'm in the right position mentally to seek out and jointly maintain a loving committed relationship. Let me tell ya, that has been a long time coming. I needed a ton of me time to figure out what I want.

This temp assignment is finally ending after six months! Normally I would be sad, but amazingly I am not. I am looking forward to the next adventure. In these past few months I realized that I am truly blessed and a child of God; so why worry?

Oh and my latest OBSESSION...WORDS WITH FRIENDS!!! If you have the app, find me "writer stewie" and let's play a game...or two!!!

I've posted a happier picture taken by my co-worker today!!!

It's great to be back!!!

Stewie

Ode to MS

I used to think I had control of my life, when in reality I don't. My step mother passed this week. She lived a long life and made it to 90. She has been in my life since I was two. For a step mother, she went above and beyond to be the best. She loved me as if I were her very own. I loved her the same. She was my friend too. We had this connection and she understood me. I will miss you MS. I love you.

Ok, so its been a couple of weeks...

Things have been happening at warp speed but not what you think. My step mother is still in the hospital. She keeps moving from nursing home to hospital. I flew home to see her a couple of weeks ago and she was happy to see me. It was bitter sweet as the thought of me never seeing her alive again breaks my heart. Also the knowing that she will never see me in a better light with all of my situations going on, i.e. finances, unemployment, writing - just having something great going on in my life so that she can go in peace and not worry about me is all I pray for; that and that she is not in any pain. I love her dearly.

I really, REALLY need something great to happen for me. It has been too long in limbo and too many bad things happening. My body and mind are exhausted. I know great things are coming I just don't know what or when. I've made peace with the fact that this is my life right now, as it has been for the past 3 years. I pray a good change happens soon.

Blessings and love to all!

You never know...

This week I had a "you never know" moment. The situation involved a friend and something happened that created a rift in our friendship. It turns out that rift was needed to strengthen our friendship to levels we both needed. It's amazing because the rift could have completely ended that friendship, instead in strengthened it!

Another "you never know" moment, I received my first studio rejection of my pilot by CBS. I thought I would feel crushed but as it turns out it made me feel better! I realized how blessed and fortunate I am to have (keeping it in the present tense) had the opportunity to have my writing read by a studio, it in a way makes me a legitimate writer! I know that sounds silly but anyone who is on this career path uses anything and every glimmer of hope to make their dreams a reality. Instead of tears, I carried the biggest smile on my face for the rest of the day!!!!

"You never know" moment number three; this week I was introduced to Shakeology! Anyone who knows me knows I'm not a sales person per se. I'm more of an observer, a scientific skeptic if you will when it comes to products that claim to do something. I tried this product for two days and in that small amount of time I saw results and have had energy (positive and physical) ever since! I immediately signed up and became a coach!! Here is my website: http://myshakeology.com/WriterStewie

Check it out and ask me anything about this product. I come from a family that owned a health food chain, so I feel like a bit of an expert when it comes to health and vitamins!!!

I'm still writing my Fringe spec episode. It's coming along. I'm determined to finish it and of course it must be perfect!!!

This turned out to be a very busy and good week for the most part. Mary is still in the hospital and I still speak with her daily.

Have a great weekend all!!!

Week One of the New Year!!!

My step Mom is doing much better, thank you for all of your prayers. This week I have been able to relax and just go with the flow. I've been writing my Fringe spec (which makes me super happy) and I've been working. I take it one moment at a time, that's the best approach.

Have a super day!!!

Angels do exist and there are GOOD People out there!!

Yesterday on my drive home, I received a phone call. It was Denice. Denice is the Phone company representative that took care of disconnecting my mom's phone in her apartment last week. I broke down in tears last week while speaking to her on the phone and she immediately stopped and said "let's pray together." 45 minutes later the phone was taken care of and I struggled through my day. Thursday was a very rough day and I thought I was going to lose my step mom. Friday morning, my step mom was a new woman! Anyway, back to last night...Denice called to check on how I and my step mom were doing. Yes, a phone company representative!!! I told her she got better but its up and down. Denice then told me that she was calling for another reason...she is purchasing a plane ticket for me to go home to Chicago to be with my mom. Miracles do happen and there are some good people out there! Amen!

This person has never met me and she took that leap of faith to help me. I know a ton of people and not one reached out to me like that. In fact there is one former friend who did just the opposite creating more stress that I don't need. Thank God for good people. They are few but they are out there.

Thank you Denice!!!

New Year, same drama?

I hope not. I say resolve the drama and move on. Everyone goes through a rough patch, I am certainly no different. I'm very excited about writing my Fringe spec. I worked on it last night before the new year rang in. I'm praying for good change, I really need it.

My step mom is up and down but hanging in there. It amazes me on the lack of care the health care system provides, especially for those the system has given up hope. I continue to thank you all for your prayers.

Happy, healthy and a prosperous 2011!