I just know...

Great things are about to happen for me. I had two great interviews with key people in regards to the tv show I am creating. The last interview resulted in the organization flying someone to me in Los Angeles for an in person interview. I was blown away by that! It will be extremely helpful in my character development since I am in that development phase now.

Personally, I cannot say my life is all roses and Popsicles. I lost a good friend and I am still struggling to find a day job. Today I paid all the bills I could, so the utilities will not be shut off. I will get through this, I just wish it was today.

I still have FAITH...

It seems that when I get a small break, it seems it pushes me 5 steps back. I spent a good time with my family overseas a few weeks ago. I had just started a position at ABC production and was told that everything is fine. I got back that Monday only to find that the guy who sat in for me talked his way into my job and the executive let me go. Just when I saw the solution to my struggles, I'm bombarded with them again.

Should I have not taken the trip, even though it was planned months before that job existed? I refused then as I do now to regret my decision to be with my family. The Friday after I got back, my mom came back from the doctor and was told she had a stroke. She is fine, but what if things were not?

Then the guy who was my angel for so many years is no longer. He has decided that because I am no longer making the money I used to, I am not worthy of anything let alone his friendship. I ended the friendship last week. I cannot and will not have flaky and selfish people in my corner. I will no longer be disappointed in the actions of others. I will simply not expect anything from anyone. I expected to have a job upon my return, I expected people to put aside their insecurities and do the right thing, I expected people to love me no matter my financial status.

Yet, through it all, I still believe all wrongs will be made right and that my life will get back on track and be the best ever. I keep prayin'.

So much going on....

My assignment at WB TV ended last week and I started back at ABC Studios this week. This was my first time working in production. It was a busy week for I had to learn a whole new world and do it at the same time while learning everyone's name and behaviors. Whew! It was a busy week.

That email finally came in from the FBI and they are going to help me with my pilot idea. It is a great honor to get their permission, my agent is very proud of me. Now I just have to find the time to develop an outline to first present to my agent, then to the FBI. First I have to finish the edits on my Criminal Minds spec which I finished last week.

I am still dealing with getting my financial house in order. It's enough to deal with all by itself. I am trying so hard to get things straight. It seems the harder I try the harder it is to get back to a comfort zone. I am still not making enough to buy food and gas in the same week, but the good news is that I am losing weight because I can't afford to buy food. I wonder if anyone really cares about my struggles? I know they cannot last forever, or can they? After all it has been three years. I became hopeful when I got this last temp assignment. It's two dollars more...woohoo, I just might be able to buy gas and a sandwich with one check!!! I was really hoping to get staffed this season as I really need to be paid as a writer. One weeks check would bring me current with everything, the second weeks check will allow me to deposit money into savings and the third weeks check will allow me to pay off some of my debt! Am I aiming too high? It is possible to be debt-free. I remember when I was 12 years old and debt-free. I want that feeling and reality again.

Still dreaming, still hoping.

Today is the Day!

No matter how nice I am to certain people, they refuse to accept the kindness. Well today I am no longer going to worry about it. Some people just love to wallow in misery.

Anyway, today I began the ground work for developing my own TV pilot. Very exciting!!! Keep your fingers crossed!

I woke up feeling so good today and I have a great feeling it will last all day. I believe something great will happen for me today. My set time is coming...it's here!

Have a great day!!

Resume Blast!

Now that I have a few specs written, I feel I am more prepared this staffing season. I emailed my new writing resume to every executive I know and don't know. Surprisingly, many have responded with a "thanks, Lisa." As I look back on my years in the entertainment industry, I have seen and been apart of many things. So now I've come full circle and it only makes sense that writing is my true calling.

Another Year has come and gone...

Well today is my birthday and thanks to my east coast family and friends it started at 4am! This will be the first time in three years I have actually celebrated my birthday. It has been three years I have been in this awful unemployed situation. Today that will all change! My set time is here and I am very greatful to have survived the storm. Flowers are blooming again!!!

Thank you!

Curse of the ASSISTANT position!

I had an interview yesterday with a production attorney who was specifically seeking someone who wanted an entry way into the production arena and not a "career assistant."
I walked in and YEP it happened. He and his assistant gave me THAT look, "oh, you're BLACK" look. I smiled and prayed to God to hold my tongue. The interview started.

He said "I am seeking an entry-level assistant who will be able to write contracts and know what I'm thinking before asking what to do. "

I'm still smiling. I pause before I spoke. My response, "so you're seeking a paralegal, law student or JD?"

His response "I would NEVER insult the intelligence of anyone with a MBA or JD to come in and be my assistant! Plus they would leave me once a better paying job came along." Hmmm, I thought to myself, "why did he call me in?"

I smiled again. At this point he must have thought I was on some happy drug. I paused again and then said with style, grace and cucumber cool, "I have a MASTERS DEGREE." He said, "Oh?" He looks down at my resume again. "I see it's from BOSTON UNIVERSITY. What is CRIMINAL JUSTICE? (A beat) I see you have a lot of assistant work, I'm not looking for a career assistant. I also see you have a lot of temp work, why have you NOT found a perfect fit?" And before I could respond, "the last temp we had was homely and missing a tooth."

My response:
Do you not find me attractive? (He smiled). I am sorry my resume has led you to believe I am a CAREER ASSISTANT. While it is unfortunate, I have been laid off a few times and with that I have had to start from the bottom and work my way to the top more times that I would like admit. With regard to my masters in Criminal Justice, it is indeed a "legitimate" degree. I was an honor student and recruited out of class to teach the masters coming up behind me.

Once he was able to close his mouth, he opened it again and said "well, do you have anymore questions for me?"

My response, "not at this time. Thank you for meeting with me."

The thank you card went out this morning "thank you for the enlightening and eye-opening interview."

Today I have removed all traces of ASSISTANT work on my resume and placed my EDUCATION at the top. I'm also going to ADD my picture so they know I am BLACK! I guess I am NEVER going to get a job now!!!

Happy Times!

Stewie