Change and that Leap of Faith

I noticed I didn't post anything for the month of April..sorry dear readers. It has been a busy month. My agent called and told me to finish my pilot...NOW.

Everyone in Hollywood waits impatiently for these types of calls. When they come, you act...no excuses. Wow - someone is interested in me!!! Of course they are...what's not to like about me? :)

I stayed up a few nights working on final connections trying to make my characters very well rounded and dropping a few hints leading into the second episode. Working on very little sleep, I resume with full force my temp job. Last week it hit me the day AFTER I turn in my pilot to my agent (she asked for it May 1st and I turned it in on April 25th) I can no longer work two full time jobs. It worked for many years beginning in college where I had 5 jobs and carried a full time class schedule.

After numerous calls to my mom, a tear or two with hysterical laughing (thinking I must be crazy), slight financial panic (especially after the past horrendous four years) I had to decide - be a temp with the only reward of a weekly check and more social interaction OR write full time and no weekly check. Hmmm...guaranteed funds or having a can of beans everyday?

Thursday Morning, I gave notice. Friday morning met me in a panic with my hair all over my head and my pajamas drenched in sweat, fearing I made the wrong decision. I managed to control my hair, showered and made it into the office. Things had changed. I could see clearly now that I've made a decision. The hard part is sticking with it. I made it through the day. I balanced my checkbook. I also went to Target and stocked up on beans.

Saturday an overwhelming sense of freedom came over me and my decision to pursue my desire to write was clear. I made the right decision.

Change is necessary and stepping out on faith shows determination in getting exactly what you want and more.

When was the last time you took a leap like this?

PS - I don't think my dog can handle me eating beans for much longer. He doesn't like the competition. :)