Goodbye 2009!

When I say it has been a hard and disappointing year, know that it's true! I am so looking forward to 2010. To all of my readers - Happy New Year!!!!!

A blink of an eye...

Here it is the morning before Christmas. Many folks are doing last minute shopping preparing for tomorrow. I'm in bed having coffee and watching Tomb Raider. Unlike many, I work up at 2am in a panic, wondering what to do and how I will muster up the courage to make it through another day without spiraling down that wicked path of negativity. Hope is all I have to show God that I am worthy of his blessings and deserving of help. Unlike Chase bank who last week decided not to give me a modification on my mortgage because they feel I am hiding money. Just when I thought I could see the light at the end of this dark tunnel, I now realize it was just my imagination. I am sick of this struggle. I am sick of mean and self-serving, scared people. I guess this is the end of my dreams of success. I've applied for more jobs this year than I have in my entire life. Today, right now, I cannot tell you what the future holds for me. All I know is I will give it my best even if I must live on the street.

Sure, Merry Christmas.

Invictus - the movie

Last night faith was restored to my soul through a movie. I like feel good movies. I like movies with a message. In these difficult times, I must continue to believe I will emerge victorious. NO matter how hard times may get for me, I must realize that God will never abandon me and God will deliver me. I recommend everyone seeing this movie. This movie is a heartfelt reminder of what Nelson Mandela went through emotionally for 27 years only to come through it as a saint.

THE POEM
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.